A friend of mine the other night said that she needs to find “traction” in her writing. I thought that was a very interesting, and apt, analogy. Especially for me, these days when my writing feels pretty much like I’m spinning my wheels. I’ve got over a dozen fanfictions I’m currently working on, and the Good Lord alone knows how many “real” stories I have that I want to tweak & finish so I can try to publish them to Amazon & elsewhere.
But – nothing. There’s been nothing much there lately. I don’t know if it’s because I’m too stressed, or not stressed enough. If I’m too depressed, or too happy. Or what it is. I have no ‘traction’, I have no ‘tension’ to get anything written & done.
There have been times in my life when I’ve written a short fanfiction story in a couple of hours (short being 1500-2000 words). There have been times when scenes for real stories came so hard, so fast into my brain that I couldn’t write fast enough to get them down. One time I was on my way to a movie and an idea for a scene in a real story hit me so hard, I had to stop at a convenience store to buy a pen and notepad so I could write it down. I wrote in line for the ticket, I wrote standing in the lobby, waiting to go into the movie, I wrote it sitting in my seat, I wrote until the lights went down.
I wish I had that kind of tension going on right now. Because not having the overwhelming urge to write, write, write, is a very odd feeling to me. It feels off. It’s not my normal way of being. It’s like expecting there to be one more swallow of tea left and then discovering that the cup is empty. It’s disappointing!